Friday, June 23, 2006
suddenly..
feel so lost..
dunoe wat i really want in life..
may look happy..life back on track..
but dunoe y suddenly..feel i lost something..
afraid of relationship..but dunoe how to say..
kinda sense the correct person have appear..but..
feel that he doesnt seems to be truthful or im thinking too much..
maybe single is better?
bees around does make me feel at least im not the one that cause last relationship to be such a failure..at least in the way of looks and character wise? haiz..dunoe ba..
i miss elaine..sob..but we just cant always meet..but my bday is coming...yeah! she just msg me..haha..thot she forget le..but she remember...tats make me feel some 1 out there still remember my important..haha..
but when i feel lost at times..i hope the special someone will be der for me...still searching..haiz...
it's me again at [11:24 PM]
Thursday, May 25, 2006
issit really i miss him or wat..
i oso dunoe..
or is really like wat ting say..maybe im not used to the lonelines..
i dunoe..
i hope is like wat ting say..
kinda feel like want to fall in love and experience de happy times tat u can spent with him..
no matter wat happen..knowing tat someone out there will care and love u..
when u need a really hug and support..he will be der..
when u need a company when all ur frens are busy with bfs,work,cca and others..
u know somehow u still can count on him to company u..
when exams are coming..u are so stress..u know tat his shoulder will be der for u..and all ur stress and unhappiness will just be gone..
somehow i know frens can give me some of wat is mention above..
but..people who really understand..will know tat..the feeling is different..
but back to it..how do i really know i have get rid of him in my mind and i can cont with my next life..
i really kinda abit afraid to get on with the next relation..
but wo zhen de hao xiang dan nian ai...
wo hao xiang yao you ren tang wo..
wo hao xiang yao you ren ming bai wo..
wo zhen de zhen de hao xiang bei tang..
wo zhen de lei le..
it's me again at [12:47 AM]
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
dunoe sld i say my life is slowly back to track or wat..
suddenly...i guess..i lost the meaning of crying le...
now..even though i still tink of wp..still see him in sch with gina..
still feel abit betray..but maybe the hurt has turn numb...
is abt 3 wks sunny pass away le..
when im alone..when i see bike..i still think of him..
maybe is memories...was thinking the really happy times we have...
sometime i wonder..if we are still couple...will this happen to him ?
will we still be happy ?
i dunoe..but i will wake myself up and stop thinking abt it...
coz i know i got to wake up...
currently status of being single seems kinda great..i guess ?
scendals in oub shop seems fun..but all we know is just entertainment..haha
im not popular or wat lah..just maybe im nice to bully ?
haa...
recently beens chatting quite alot with tis new guy i know...
even though haven really meet..but we seems to know and get along chatting with each other well...nice fren to know...haahaa..
meet up with pri fren on sun after work..i wear so ugly lor..haa...took pict..shall wait for suzan to send us..hehe...went to balcony to slack...
really a nice place to chill...not too bad...got sofa..haa...shall go der and slack with hubbing babes...
haha....
sch alone feel kinda sianz...got a feeling im gonna bcome a anti-social person soon..after end of yr 2 sem 1...haha...
havent really fully recover frm irritating sickness..but still gonna go for training tml for running..hahaha...hope i can make it for the run..i got no more steamina le...die..is time to train up le JOSSIE !!!!! dun be lazy anymore !!!!
it's me again at [1:36 AM]
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
memories of u will always be remembered..
is the only tink i can say..
month of april i lost two person tat i once loved..
1 is gone with another girl and 1 had left me and all of us..
sunny..tk care..will miss u..
tears just drop..i really cant believe it..
feel like im dreaming or issit some kind of joke ?
last yr of today..im still with u..maybe still riding or watching u play hockey..
but tis yr of today..i am sending u off to another place ..
i cant accept the fact..
he just gone like tat..without any inform..
24042006..i will remember..
when i was in the ring yesterday..i dun feel gd..
back to the same place tat i used to be..but at a diff feeling...
memories of how we spent der just flows back..
watching u play..bring water for u..
rushing back hm..seeing u shot in goals..looking at ur happy faces..
but now u just gone like tat...
while sitting at kenny's car..passing by the petrol station tat we used to go..
how u always pick me up...how we spent our time on the road..
how we disturb ppl..how we rush for time..
u taught me how u ride bike..how to wear helmet...and now u are gone forever..and is really from the world forever...
how u want me to accept it ?
the only regrads now is tat time u call..i nv ask u wat u want and i hang up the fone..
but i cant go back time anymore...not anymore...
i keep holding back my tears today..i tried not to let u see me crying ..sorry tat i cant make it..still drop..but i really control alot le..
miss u sunny..miss the time together...
dun worry abt ur family..coz ur brother will tk care of ur mum de..and ur second sis still care abt u..see..last time i nv lie to u rite...she cares abt u no matter how much u all quarrel last time..
....................
it's me again at [1:23 AM]
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
first day of sch..
but im too tired to blog..if even i have alot to share..
important is..sunny has pass away..24th apr 2006 230am..
i cant believe..
it's me again at [3:40 AM]
Sunday, April 16, 2006
sld i say i hate him...
or sld i say i must be happy for him..
like i say b4..when he really like someone..
he will really treat her gd..
so i guess im rite..and he is currently doin it..
while typong tis..
i really do feel abit like crying...but i told myself no more crying..
and i guess i did it ?
kind of understand the feeling of someone betray u and get involve with another girl and after not long u guys broke off..he got att..
i guess only angie understand how i feel rite now..
is no use crying..i know..
this few days i was thinking..
since owen and thomas is so nice to me..
maybe i sld just try to be with one of them and put watever i have for weiping i just give it to them..
but..i dun like to treat them as spare tyre..i know the feeling of someone playing ard with ur feelings..
i just experience it..
maybe i sld just stay single ba..
let time heal the pain...
going to see him soon..
i really dunoe how strong i can face him..
i really dunoe...
ppl always think jossie is strong..
but the fact is...i am not as strong as u all think..
i admit i do still miss and think of him..
but i know he is no longer mine..
y sld i still miss him when he did tis to me..
but something just cant control...
i really miss him..
it's me again at [2:14 AM]
Monday, April 10, 2006
less than 2 months ago..
someone called me and say,
"darling,u still angry ar? happy valentine day..u want to go out tml ?"
less than 2 months from den..
he is already attached to a girl..
kinda of think of it..
how much does he really mean when he say does..
suddenly i felt tat secretly all this time..
he is falling for her behind my back without realising it..
he had been close to her when we are together..
he offically did it after we broke up...
feel like i am such a fool...
placing so much trust in him..
thot tat he wont fall for someone else when we are together..
but i was wrong...
it's me again at [8:30 AM]
i am so hurt..
so my guess was rite..
she was the third party..
i hate myself..
i thot i can forget abt u..
i was wrong..
so fast u ask for her to be ur gf..
i nv see u so happy as b4..
i hate myself..
it's me again at [1:27 AM]
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